#60 A brutal murder!

An accident happened last night...

I killed... I killed... Oh, God, I killed my pyjamas! *bursts into tears*

They were old and worn off, b...b...but... they were my favourite! Seriously, I almost cried when my foot came out through not where it was supposed to.

It is not funny!

I had them for 3 years(I told you they were old), we don't have those in Bulgaria and they had sheep and it said "Sheepy time" and they were really comfortable and I am really sad now. My flatmates laughed at me and if you think about it is really stupid to grieve over some stuff, pyjamas, but it is just so sad... I loved those :(
They are now neatly folded and... in the trash bin.

I will miss you! :'(

ETA: Yes, they are torn at the crotch and NO, it is not because of too much masturbation!

#59 P. bear (and an ETA)

And among those there should be the new species P. Bear...

The winter is coming. The weather is getting cold. It is getting dark at 18:00h. And my body suddenly decides that it needs the massive 11 hours of sleep. WTF. This is not napping! This is a nice long deep winter sleep! Last year I had the same problem... and it is starting again :(. I come home from work, feeling tired, then I decide to have a half an hour nap and then I just forgot to wake up. I am not happy about it. This is ridiculous! I am not a 90-year-old granny, I should be more live and vivid. Spending the whole evening and night in bed is just plain insane. Things happen, things are being said and I miss everything, because P. bear has to hibernate. Oh, come on! At least before I wasn't sleeping so deep and I had the slightest idea what was going on around me. Now... I am like dead :(. You can't create memories while sleeping...(this is a bad attempt to translate an old Bulgarian saying). Someone should smack me really hard and take me out of this state... Please...

ETA:
-Who are you?
-Ninja.
-Then why are you so slow?
-I am a turtle ninja!

LAUGH PEOPLE!!! IT IS FUNNY!

#58 Yahoo! Mail and last night

Oh, the dirty bastards!!!
You don't do things like this without a warning...
YIKES!!!
Yahoo! changed the layout of my mailbox!!! Fuckers!!! Without a warning!!! Without asking me!!!

Now don't get me wrong... not that I don't like the new stuff (I haven't really explored it) but it is confusing, especially early in the morning...

ETA: I found the button for getting back my classic mail layout... I want to click it but I will give the new thingy a chance.
ETA2: Nope, I couldn't do it... Good old mailbox is back on!

ETA1: I need to learn to express myself better in English and also... learn some new and cool words... I had a great and funny (in my humble opinion) story to tell, wrote it, read it, deleted it (yes, yes... it sounded sooo lame and blah...) Hmmm, I wonder should I try to tell a short version...
Went to visit a friend. Ran out of alcohol. Couldn't find keys to go out and get alcohol. Couldn't find friend's sister to come and unlock the door(when you cheat on your boyfriend, you can answer the phone to your sister, she knows the lover!). Couldn't ring friend's boyfriend(with a set of keys) to come and unlock the door(pay your bill on time, man!). Drank shitty beer left overs. Spend 3 hours panicking and making ridiculous plans for lame attempts to get some alcohol(waking up neighbours to pass some rakia through the balcony, making a sheetrope... yeah the usual, you know...). Boyfriend found on ICQ. Sister rang back. Keys found next to a cupboard thingie in the hallway(those just get in the way, don't they). Boyfriend came, sister came. Boyfriend and sister really pissed. Three sets of keys, no alcohol, 2 a.m. and time to go home. Seriously, I laughed my ass off at the end. It is funny, if you are me!

#57 Annoyance

I think that it is very good for one to love their country and be patriotic and all. But only to a certain extent. I love Bulgaria and I am proud of my language but I just don't understand some people... Yes, there is the freedom of speech, blah blah, one has the right to express their opinion and blah blah. I am annoyed.

Today I had the luck to read a few blogs, that had some rules about commenting on them. The bloggers clearly stated that the certain blogs are written in Cyrillic only, unless impossible to use Cyrillic and will not tolerate comments by people who use Latin characters or "chat" characters. All comments that are not written in Cyrillic will be deleted, no matter how great of opinion they state. As a reason for this it was said that they manage the blogs, so they make the rules.

Now I can understand their choice to write exclusively in Bulgarian with cyrillic characters, as I choose to write in rotten English :) (everybody has their own reasons for this and I respect it), but to forbid others to express themselves the way they want (if not offensive and rude, that is)... is just a big contradiction. You will ask how is this contradiction... well, those people also stated that they won't tolerate any form of racism, discrimination and so on. Well, excuse me, but you'll ignore my thoughts based on the fact that I use a different character set, if this is not discrimination I will smack myself. I wouldn't be so annoyed if they didn't break their own rules and I really respect the fact that it is indeed their own internet space, but come on!

And for the record I want to say something, that might earn me some black points...
I am a racist. Not always, sometimes only. I tend to generalize judging by single experience. But! I never keep my doors closed and less and less I judge people by the cover, because it is nasty and it is not right, and I try to change myself...

#56 :D

They are pink...
They are soft...
They are pure art...
I want them in me, erm... I want me in them...

#55 :(

#54 awww

Those totally made my day... :D

#53 ZUNE...

I am a Windows lover, I admit. It has it's faults but hey... me likes it and can work with it, I don't mind restarting my computer from time to time, because I never turn it off anyway and it needs its little breaks... In general I am pretty happy and satisfied with my OS and wouldn't change it... never! (saying this now... I sense how my computer is suddenly crashing just to prove me wrong and confirm the saying "never say never". Ah, well it won't be the first and it sure won't be the last time I reinstall ;) )

Now... on Sunday I became a proud owner of this baby...



It looks pretty and cool and I was all "WOW" and "hihi".
But my utter and pure joy lasted only till the point when I started exploring it.
Oh, oh... before I continue, this is the official site, which by the way is totally useless (at least for me it was and not that I spent a lot of time there...)

I connected the device to the computer and the battery started charging... "Cool!" I thought. But hey... where is it, I can't find it. The computer made the default sound for new device, I looked everywhere... "You beeped, God damn it! Don't hide from me!". Apparently it is impossible for the computer to recognize it as an external device. Aaaaaah! This is why the only instruction that came with the box said, insert disk, plug in device, work! Riiight! You stupid woman, of course the software comes first...
I am happy I have a nice internet connection. You need internet in order to install it, I don't dare wonder what would have happened if my net was down at this moment... Actually, I would have had a cute thingy to just LOOK AT! The software installation took forever... I am still figuring out how to work with it, but I am getting close... I now have some music uploaded and shit. But, really, how hard it is to get a freaking 12 sec .mp3 on there? I will tell you... it took me at least 10 mins to do so... I mean... "Hellou ;)! Work with me here! Please... ".
It is a media player, meaning you can play music, clips and view pics. Guess my excitement about playing clips... but alas! Whaaaaaa? It doesn't support .avi? What player doesn't support .avi? .wmv, .mp4 and some other shit that noone watches anyway are ok. At this moment I could feel a tear rolling down my cheek, oh the pain in my heart... So, I spent half an hour more to search for a nice converter from .avi to .wmv or .mp4 or whatever works. I have that software now... it takes quite a long time to convert though. It wasn't enough that Zune software is complicated, but here you are some more bad interfaced programs to learn... The results from my attempt were nice and oh, the newly created video file took a little longer than forever to get synchronized with the player. But, hey, I figured I will do this at night. One night I convert and the next I upload... My plan is brilliant... I feel like crying. Why it has to be so complicated?
What else I could share... The sound is pretty satisfying and can get pretty loud... Not much options included... shuffle and repeat... that is it. It has radio, WOHOO, this is a huge '+' for me and a dream come true (kinda... shhh I love radio, tune on 93,9 MHz or listen online). It has the cutest and softest case(it is not a case but can't think of other word now... bag?!) ever.

I still need to learn and experiment with it... The best is yet to come, I bet!
ZUNE!

ETA: Oh, just a little thing to add here... So you need internet to install, meaning that it gets the needed files online. What i couldn't understand is how the hell it does the installation online and then freaking tells me that there is an update available and I have an older version of the firmware... "You do this online, fucker, just download the latest software! There is not freaking need for me to do this two times!"

#52 I am full of shit sometimes...

My brain takes massive care of me. Recently I've noticed that in moments of emotion overflow, I react, I have all those thoughts and then... when I calm down (which is actually a complete shut off) I just don't remember. I know how I felt in general, but what I've said or done... is covered in mist. Last night I had some hard moments and I did write about it here. I don't know what I've said. I didn't know what I've said a couple of hours after blogging. I find this very weird, because I want to remember. It is easier now, because it is written down and I can read it, but this is an exception (not all the time I am at the computer logged in to blogger). I think I've worked on this ability of mine for quite a long time of my life, subconsciously of course. And there comes some tough moment, which is not necessarily that bad, but my brain turns on the autopilot... This is how I work out my problems, I just switch them off. Now I come to realize that I am not that optimistic after all, I am just a chicken that hides away... I stick my head in the sand, if I don't see the bad stuff then it is not there, right? Stupid me!

A few posts before I was admiring life and it's funny ways of crossing people's lives. I remember when I was little, everyone had these notebooks with all kinds of questions and we used to give them to all our friends to fill them out. "What is your motto?" was in every notebook. I didn't have one back then. I do now. Everything happens for a reason! It really does. Life knows its tiny paths... I do fall into traps on my way but there is always a reason for that and there is always someone or something that will give you a kick in the ass (this sounds a little hard, sometimes a few words are more than enough) and there I will be on the road again...

I am a happy person, I will stay that way!

FUCK IT ALL!!!

How much can one take? How many fronts can one fight? Can you fight the world? Do you want to fight the world, knowing that the battle is already lost? How much does it hurt when you know you lost a friend? How much it hurts knowing that someone you care about, no matter what is avoiding you and hiding from you? How much it hurts knowing you are lying the whole world? How much it hurts knowing you are one big disappointment? OH, how it hurts knowing you are hurting someone else...

I want to run away, far away...

I am not a bad person and yet all I seem to do are bad things.

How can one be good, how can one be loved when all they do is fuck up and let down...

This is me...

I can't live without my friends and then I hurt them so much...

The vote is off.
I overrated myself.
I don't deserve your trust.
Be happy, cause I am not...
I am so fucked!!!

#47 Cameltoe?

Have you seen the movie "The weatherman"? Hm, as far as I remember there was this reference about "cameltoe"... (quick google check-> I was right).

As much as I am embarrassed to say this... I am fucked. Oh, God!

So, I have to go to this party tonight... Nova television celebrates: new studios/new building/new TV season (we delivered the equipment, so we are invited). Riiiight! It is at the ridiculous time of 17:30, which means that I am sitting at work in my nice clothes and kinda high heels. However, my lovely pants that make my ass look great are not cooperative today and me sitting on the chair all day, crossing my legs and etc. and my pants kinda dig in, if you know what i mean, is not nice. I am now worried, cause well, you notice things like this... If I don't work around this somehow, my crotch will get quite a lot of looks tonight and I don't actually want this kind of attention there.

Now, feel free to laugh and mock me as much as you want, cause it is indeed very funny in a way :), but please pray with me it gets fixed by the end of the day. I don't want to end up on TV with millions of viewers... aaaaaaa!

#46

I just kissed my roomie on the cheeks for good night... How freaking cute is that.

Apparently we've been friends for 13 years now...(let me hear you all go "awww").

Life can be really strange... you never know what will happen and when or where you are going to meet increadible people (not talking about the roomie here ;)).

Thank you for being my friends and trusting me so much. This means the world to me. I love you all...

#45 Tests are so much fun!!!

This is freaking cool...