#143 Dear special diary...

#142 oh, wow

Oh, wow!
I am quite impressed by myself, or should I say by my non-smoking self. Hehe.

So last night I went for my run and it's been 4 days since I quit smoking (yeah, I know, 4 days doesn't sound like such a big deal, but considering the effort I am making, it's hard people, Iam telling you... and the fact that I was a smoker for 11 straight years, god, I am old...) Ok back on topic... I had no troubles doing double the laps I usually do, I didn't really get out of breath, my speed was better than usual, my heart rate was constant and pretty much within the limits. I should also give some credit to the fact that this time I had music playing in my ears, which gave me an extra boost.

But, I'll be damned, 4 days do make a big difference!

On a different note... going out drinking tonight... I hope I won't get tempted to light a cigarette and also I hope to get some company to go to Soho...

#141 Day one

I've made a radical decision last night!

While I was doing my regular run at 20:00h, I suddenly felt a quite sharp pain in my chest area which somehow turned into this dull and pretty constant pain in the back of my neck. Now, since I haven't been saving money on cigarettes lately, I've made up my mind that it was about time to take up some actions. As from today my lungs will be a smoke-free environment (except in the cases when I go out, drink a little bit more and... you know the rest of the story). And I am being dead serious this time, I am really determined to succeed. Which probably means that I will fail big time or get fat as a fat swine, ah, what the hell, wish me luck, keep your fingers crossed for me, buy me a drink ;)

#140 Rainbow Friendship Parade

Май е време и аз да направя копи и пейст на обявлението за гей праид 2009 (вж. по-долу).

Бих казала, че звучи доста обещаващо и дори забавно. Много се радвам, че ще присъстват хора, които полицията няма начин да не защитава => и обикновените хора имат шанс да не пострадат. Определено ще е пълно с тъпанари, скинове, БНСари и какви ли още не фашистки акита (ако ми позволите да се изразя така...), но никой няма да позволи някой "известен" да го отнесе.

Радвам се, че е включена "културна програма", защото като човек, който съвсем не е навътре в ЛГБТ обществото (четете не познавам никой в цитираното общество), ми се струва, че имено на такива събития се завръзват ползотворни контакти, а не по баровете. Както и да е...

Аз смятам да присъствам на парада. Само се надявам мама и тати да не ме засекат някъде по ТВто, че тогава си е ебало майката... Ще видим тази година колко шум ще се вдигне по медиите, надявам се само този път да е от солидарност, а не за вдигане на рейтинга.

Вървят в момента и призиви за помощ на организаторите... физическа и финансова. С моето присъствие няма как да помогна (не че нямам качествата ;), ама време няма). Но поне банков превод лесно се прави. Ето и сметките, ако някой случаен посетител тук изяви желание...

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Ами това е май... ще се видим на парада...

На 27 юни тази година в София ще се проведе Rainbow Friendship шествие, организиранo от коалиция от неправителствени организации и представители на бизнес сектора, сред които Международната асоциация InterPride, Българска гей организация “Джемини”, микс клуб “ID Club”, Ресурсен център за бисексуални жени и лесбийки “Билитис” и Български Активистки Алианс. Това ще е второто такова събитие, след като миналата година БГО “Джемини” беше организатор на шествието „Аз и моето семейство”.

На същата дата светът отбелязва 40-тата годишнина от революционните събития в “Stonewall”, Ню Йорк, когато се положени основите на международното LGBT движение за равни права.

Програмата, по която ще протече събитието ще стартира с брифинг на тема „(Как) да откриваме словото на омразата и престъпленията от омраза?”, последван от шествие по софийските улици, културна програма в Червената къща и after party в най-модерния столичен микс клуб “ID club”.

На Rainbow Friendship събитието специални гости ще са депутати от Европейския парламент, множество представители на международни организации за равни права, посланици, популярни артисти и певци, които подкрепят и защитават идеята, че хората са равни по между си, без значение на пол, раса, сексуална ориентация, религия и произход.

Идеята на шествието Rainbow Friendship е хората да се съберат и да се забавляват заедно, като обиколят столичните улици под звуците на хаус и диско хитове в ремикси, фреш диско, хип-хоп и електро парчета. Допълнително ще бъде обявен маршрутът на стрийт парада, както и подробности около украсата, платформите и другите празнични елементи, задължителни за едно такова събитие.

Можете да се присъедините към групата във Facebook, да станете част от събитието и да следите новините в Twitter.

За повече информация:

Венелина Михова
Юнайтед Партнърс
Тел.: 832 33 44

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On June the 27th Sofia will be hosting a Rainbow Friendship Rally, this year organized by a larger coalition consisting of NGOs and business supporters, among which there are The Bulgarian Gay Organization “Gemini”, ID Mix Club, Resource Center for Bi & Lesbian Women “Bilitis” and Bulgarian Activist Alliance. This will be the second event of its kind to be held in Sofia, Bulgaria, following last year’s Gay Pride Rally “Me and My Family”.

On the very same date the world is celebrating the 40th anniversary of the historic riots at Stonewall Inn, the event that prompted the very outburst and developments in LGBT emancipation and rights protection worldwide.

The program includes an earlier briefeng on the topic “Understanding Hate Speech and Hate Crimes”, supported and backed by international guests from LGBT organizations, as well as EU representatives, and after the rally a cultural program will be running, which is kindly hosted by Red House Center for Culture and Debate, all this followed by an after party at the Id Mix Club.

The special guests of the Rainbow Friendship event will be prominent EU MPs and human rights advocates, a multitude of representatives of international organizations, as well embassadors, celebrities and others, all standing behind the idea that gender, race, sexual orientation, religion and origin are not a border among people.

The idea is that we all gather and celebrate together, flooding up the streets with various tunes from the house, disco, hip-hop and other scenes. More news are to follow soon, such as the route, more confirmed guests and supporters, as well all the other exciting celebration paraphernalia!

#139

I am too old for partying in the middle of the week... actually no, I am not, I just drink too much... I think I got pretty close to 400 ml of whiskey... No wonder I am feeling a little sick now...

Queen butch/femme blah blah party sucked. I really hope that there was actually some real programme before I went there, cause otherwise... a three year old could have made it more entertaining... The music was good though... and God, it is 3 in the afternoon and I am still detoxing... not good... it's been a while I drank like a pig... shame on me. I wonder... if I am so disappointed after being dead drunk... I would have died from boredom or whatever if I was sober... I guess it would have been fun if I actually knew someone there... ah well...

God, I feel sick...

Oh, fuck you, stupid bitch!!!
Arggghhhhhh...

#136 Wetlands

Thanks to a friend of mine I got my hands on this book.
The author is Charlotte Roche and the name is Wetlands (original title: Feuchtgebiete).
What got my attention was the juicy title, of course, then I read a few reviews of the book which were so controversial that only added up to my desire to read it. I must admit that my expectations got quite high here.
Long story short, it is about a 18-year-old girl/woman/, Helen, who is very sexually active and who accidentally gets her anus infected and spends some time in the hospital. It is generally the thoughts of Helen and not much of a storyline. The book started as a protest to all the wide-spread standards of how a woman should keep her body neat and clean, but somewhere along the way got twisted in the sick(in my opinion) understanding of hygiene the main character has. Don't get me wrong here, I respect her choices and ways of exploring her body, it is just not what makes me happy and gives me a feeling of freedom. I think that the girl is quite confused and caught in her attempt to get her divorced parents back together. But this part of the story somehow gets lost in the very explicit and graphic impressions of her habits. It gets pretty disgusting at points. I had to stop reading it a couple of times, because I felt sick (as in stop-reading-or-you-will-vomit-in-your-mouth way). It is only nasty because it is still a taboo in our society to talk about personal things like this. They exist and we are aware of this but noone wants to know how others shit, menstruate or do an enema to themselves in the tub. People buy the book expecting it to be sexy, pornographic and whatnot and turn out wrong. It really is a mixture... it is sad, funny, sexy at moments, but we fail to pay attention to all this, because we are shocked, shocked and grossed out of the way one openly speaks of what shall not be told. The only 'hole' in the plot I see at the ending, I just don't get it. It seems the author needed a closure, but was out of ideas so she just rushed to it. And therefore I finished the book with a slight feeling of disappointment. But all in all I enjoyed Wetlands and probably would recommend it to my twisted friends or to my enemies :)

/random quotes from random pages/

"As far back as I can remember, I've had haemorrhoids" - very promising opening line...

"When I jerk somebody off, I always make sure that some cum gets on my hand. I run my fingers through it and let it dry under my long nails. That way, later in the day, I can reminisce about my good fuck partner by biting my nails and getting bits of the hardened cum to play with in my mouth; I chew on it, after tasting it and letting it slowly dissolve, I swallow it. It's an invention I'm proud of: the memorable-sex bonbon"

"When it comes to my period, I don't care about hygiene, either. It's blown completely out of proportion. Tampons are expensive and unnecessary. When I have my period, I use toilet paper to make my own tampons while I'm sitting on the toilet. I'm proud of that"