#181

Two fucking words... The best words ever... I can't be happier...

#179

And then she said something that made me mad... "Obligation?!? Obligation?!? Are you fucking serious?" I raised my voice and got the serious look... I knew she was oversensitive at that moment and yet I couldn't help but get upset... I made her cry... and I got scared... If only she knew... The only tears I want to see in her eyes are the ones from happiness... I didn't know what to say or what to do, I just hugged her really close and stroked her... We are good. It was nothing really, she understood my reasons...

There is something that I want to say to her... I know the words, the exact words. I don't have the guts. It is ridiculous, really, why can't I say it? You, you and you... all of you know. It is so easy to share it with you, but so hard and close to impossible to just look at her and say it. I think she knows and feels it, but I want to say it, need to say it... Argh, stupid me... Is it too soon? Can it be too soon? It doesn't feel soon at all...

I wish I could stop the time...