Sometimes I really hate the teenagers nowadays. I hate them because I envy them and yet I know I am better than them. I am telling you, the feeling is not nice at all... to envy someone who you think is not really worth it... bleh!
The majority of the teenagers (I am aware that there still are good kids among us) today are totally degraded in every possible way. They follow the path of corruption, they don't care, they don't want to learn, they don't respect, they are arrogant and stupid. And yet I envy them sometimes and I hate the feeling (I am repeating myself, obviously). Sometimes I wish I had their freedom (here I really want to use another word, it is very similar to 'freedom' but I am not sure there is one in English, it is abused freedom) and attitude when I was a teenager. Don't get me wrong here, oh I so enjoyed my teenage years, but there are certain moments of my life that I wish didn't happen or more likely make them happen a little bit different. I know exactly the source of my envy, I know that I don't need to turn back time to change things, but it seems to me that it might have been a little easier if I knew some things for sure back then. I'd like to think that my life would be somewhat different, although knowing myself I would have chickened out like always. I envy the easiness in their actions, I hate their lack of reason and responsibility, I hate that they don't really care of the probable consequences... or no!
Maybe I envy them, because I hate myself?
The majority of the teenagers (I am aware that there still are good kids among us) today are totally degraded in every possible way. They follow the path of corruption, they don't care, they don't want to learn, they don't respect, they are arrogant and stupid. And yet I envy them sometimes and I hate the feeling (I am repeating myself, obviously). Sometimes I wish I had their freedom (here I really want to use another word, it is very similar to 'freedom' but I am not sure there is one in English, it is abused freedom) and attitude when I was a teenager. Don't get me wrong here, oh I so enjoyed my teenage years, but there are certain moments of my life that I wish didn't happen or more likely make them happen a little bit different. I know exactly the source of my envy, I know that I don't need to turn back time to change things, but it seems to me that it might have been a little easier if I knew some things for sure back then. I'd like to think that my life would be somewhat different, although knowing myself I would have chickened out like always. I envy the easiness in their actions, I hate their lack of reason and responsibility, I hate that they don't really care of the probable consequences... or no!
Maybe I envy them, because I hate myself?
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You can envy them and you can hate them, but can you look back and imagine yourself 10 years ago? How did you feel? What was the most important thing to do? What impressed you, what did you want the most? Did you dream of being grown up and independent, did you want to leave your home? What did you think of your parents, school, your teachers?
What was the first idea to appear in your mind when you wake up in the morning?
When you answer these questions and if you compare your current life you might find that you envy the teenagers because life is getting more difficult, it was quite easier to make mistakes, it was always somewhere there to support you and to guide you - your parents, your teachers...
And now, when you score 2 (poor) at subject "job" or subject "love" the consequences are much more difficult to deal with.
Hi Roromir, don't get me wrong here... I am quite happy with my life. Of course there are thing that I want and try to accomplish, but isn't that what gets me going and makes it interesting?
It is not about how easy or hard life is, but about how I was taught to think and follow some kind of social standards, which are not necessarily right. It is about getting out of the box.
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