#183 period.

Period today... Another bloody weekend to come but I will not complain... We will make it beautiful... And why the hell I talk "we" and not "I"?!?

Last month's info is missing... so here it is: 27.02.2010

#182

I've always thought it was a very stupid, ridiculous and fake thing to do...
I've seen it on the movies...
Someone sees a mouse, screams like crazy and jumps on the chair/table/sofa/whatever...
Well I'll be damned, but last night I did it... a few times...
Imagine the situation... Me and the roomie are watching some TV, chatting a little and at one point I see something... a tiny grey body with a tiny tail sneaks in from the balcony into the kitchen along the wall... Me: "Ah, a mouse... A mouse!" (still being calm) The roomie also sees the mouse, starts screaming and jumps on the sofa. I then realize it really is a freaking mouse and panic a little, scream a little and lift my legs in the air. We get hysterical, scream, laugh and most of all we are scared like shit and don't know what to do... I can't move, I can't stand up on the chair because if I do so I will fall, all I can do is sit with my legs up high... Like half an hour later or so we gain some courage and start looking around for the little intruder, we get the broom and the dust-pan... We were hunting... Until we saw it sneaking from the kitchen in the corridor and again started screaming, jumping, freaking out... We managed to surround it under the freezer and guarded it until this guy came... for 2 freaking hours... And he killed it for 5 minutes...
The mouse was like 5 cm long... that tiny and it made us go out of our minds...


On a different note... My boobs are huge! It feels sooo nice!

#181

Two fucking words... The best words ever... I can't be happier...

#180 *bam*

I had a minor car accident tonight. No one got hurt, neither there are damages on the car...

It was just very stupid of me... I lost concentration for a moment and bumped into the car ahead of me. The other driver got out of her car quite pissed but when she saw that there were no damages just forgot all about it and we were back in the traffic.

I feel really stupid now, pissed at myself. I can't believe I let this happen. And I don't like the way I feel about myself now, but I need it, so I could get a grip and don't let something like this happen again.

I will consider this as a wake-up call... I haven't been focusing lately. The pink bubble I've been floating with is so comfy and beautiful, but the real world is all around me and I better stop ignoring it.

#179

And then she said something that made me mad... "Obligation?!? Obligation?!? Are you fucking serious?" I raised my voice and got the serious look... I knew she was oversensitive at that moment and yet I couldn't help but get upset... I made her cry... and I got scared... If only she knew... The only tears I want to see in her eyes are the ones from happiness... I didn't know what to say or what to do, I just hugged her really close and stroked her... We are good. It was nothing really, she understood my reasons...

There is something that I want to say to her... I know the words, the exact words. I don't have the guts. It is ridiculous, really, why can't I say it? You, you and you... all of you know. It is so easy to share it with you, but so hard and close to impossible to just look at her and say it. I think she knows and feels it, but I want to say it, need to say it... Argh, stupid me... Is it too soon? Can it be too soon? It doesn't feel soon at all...

I wish I could stop the time...

#178 Banichka

I just can't help but share this... :)))