#75 Surviving Christmas

Just shoot me! Now!
If I watch one more soap opera I will kill myself!
Please, set me free from this misery...
Isn't Christmas supposed to be fun?
I miss Sofia...

Oh, which fucking cable TV doesn't have a porn channel? I will tell you which one... the one in Kazanlak doesn't have a porn channel!!! I mean... I wasn't feeling miserable enough already. I decided to bring some joy in my life, stay up late, get in the mood for some..., ah what the hell, masturbation and oh the surprise... stupid TV!!! Where is my porn channel... Fuckers... Anyway, found me some soft porn... and just as I was getting comfy on the bed... my kitty decides to lay on me... Hey you, WTF, I have an eager pussy between my crotch already, I don't need two, get out of the way... But noooo, he just had to lay there on my hand, on my crotch and that is not all... right in front of the TV... yeah...

Why do I have to get woken up at 9:30, when I was promised I will sleep as much as I want?

#74 "You are an Owl!"

Yes, I know, I got surprised as well and a tiny "wtf" crossed my mind (on a side note... wtf is just plain adorable with cyrillic letters -> "втф", I bet no one really gets this, but I swear it cracks me up, haha). I wasn't happy seeing this cutie and being compared to it, but then again, it might be true. I am a Scorpio and I so don't belong to the commonly accepted opinion about our sex behaviour and blah blah. I am a boring and retarded, and kinda narrow-minded lover. *gasp*. And to think, I have such wonderful and passionate and oh so hot fantasies. The power of the mind is unlimited, really!

Aaanyway... here's a little quote:

"Reserved and thoughtful, you choose your partners carefully and with caution. You are respected by your partners and are not easily taken advantage of. You are charming and romantic but it takes courage for you to open up to someone sexually. Once you do open up you are an attentive lover and pleasing your partner is more important to you than personal gratification."

I'd really like to believe that last sentence there, but thinking back I would say that I tend to be rather selfish and less giving. Pfft. I wonder if I really clicked the right answers or clicked the answers I wished were right?

Then again, I really don't believe any of this shit ;)

Oh..., so what animal are you in bed?

ETA: В стаята ми има бухал! Буху, буху...
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Today is a really special day. And I would like to wish my great friend a happy birthday!

Честит рожден ден, Нинко!!!
Обичам те!

So is it better to tell and hurt or lie to save their face?

#72 Eww

Seriously!
Do I have a sign on my forehead saying "All freaks and pervs come to me"? Cause if i don't, I don't know what's my problem!

#71 One year

#70 A list of things I hate or disgust me

So, I've been planning to make a post like this for a very long time now. Every now and then I see something that truly appalls me and I say to myself "Oh, eww, I've got to blog about it". Well, I suppose the time has finally come.

• Men who have long nails. On one, two, five, all fingers... I don't care it is just gross and not right!
• People who bite their nails. Oh my God, that can put me off so fucking much. If you want to be my friend, I beg you, do not do this in front of me, please! It gets me the shivers(the brrrr kind) even by just thinking about it.
• People who eat their hair. Oh, eww, it is dangerous, people!

Obviously this will get continue with time... For now I only have this :)

ETA:

• Stupid people, using public transport. I will explain... Imagine rush hour, 100 people at the bus stop, not one bus for more than 30 mins. Finally when a crowded bus comes all try to get in and hang out the doors. Another bus is coming, same picture and another one... I wait... a fourth bus comes, empty, I get on, I sit. Then it slowly gets crowded. At my stop I try to get off, but of course the people at the doors wouldn't move their asses. I have to push my way through and it would have been so much easier if they just stepped one tiny step aside, but yeah... why bother when you can make it so much complicated... Bastards.

#68 HELLO!

Today is World Hello Day!
So... HELLO, everybody! Be happy!

Also... today we celebrate the christian family. Don't forget to call your mum and dad ;)

#67 Hatred and narrow-mindednes

In the last couple of days there's been a lot of fuzz about a certain advertisement with a certain content. See pictures of the "scandalous" billboard bellow (credit: BGNES)

As you can see the billboard didn't last long.

The poster was advertising a new TV channel that will be launched on November 25. The idea was that it will have bold and adventurous programme. Well, it sure scared the Bulgarian society, which claims to be a significant part of the EU with open minds for new ideas and so on. That is total bullshit. I am really disgusted at the people and all the nasty comments that were said. Personally I find the poster to be sexy without being appalling. Yes, it shows two men kissing or whatever, but so what? I thought we live in the 21st century, i thought we have the freedom to be who we are, I thought we have the freedom to express ourselves, without crossing certain lines of course. I live in a country where people can't tolerate something that is "out of the commonly accepted opinion". Right! Only that this opinion was common maybe in the Medieval Ages and during the communism.

People, grow up and fucking open your minds! Your children won't become gay only by seeing a poster. Homosexuality is not illness! You are either gay or not!

I am truly upset with the hatred and the fear people have.

#666 Evil.

What happens when you stop going to work with pleasure, when you wake up and tell to yourself "God, how am I going to last another day there?", when you feel that the respect is slowly fading away?

I spend most of my time at work. Really is it worth it? It's been a week now and I still feel miserable and I so haven't started to get over it, not the slightest bit. Yes it was a mistake and it is only human, but it was also a huge mistake and it was me who made it. I am the type of person who freaks out in any unfriendly environment. I just don't like it and don't want to like it. And it is a fact now that the tiniest thing evolves to colossal proportions and judgment gets dimmed and people get blamed. We react and act based on our emotions and it is only natural that the consequences are such, but we are also grown ups and we reason. This is not right. One doesn't need a lot to get crashed, but it is not so easy to stand back up.

I've stopped noticing the little things, I've stopped just smiling, I've been not myself for a week now. Because I feel miserable.

It was my birthday yesterday. I have this huge box with candies and now I have to look at my boss and say "Hey, here, I had my birthday, take one for me". How do you do this, when they can't even look you in the eyes and when you know that right now they don't give a flying fuck about you. (Don't get me wrong here, my boss is cool but now it is the uncool moment)

I don't want to stay at work and I know that tomorrow when I wake up I wouldn't want to go to work.

#69 ... because it is my birthday!

Go, go, go, go, go, go
Go, shorty
It's MY birthday
We gon' party like it's MY birthday
We gon' sip vodka like it's MY birthday...

Happy birthday to P. (i.e. me)!

#65 Great! (this is ironic by the way)

So, for two years now I've had some problems with my hands (especially the right one) during winter. I've been told many times by parents and friends to go and see a doctor, because it might be my bones and stuff. The lazy and don't-like-doctor-visits me always managed to find time to postpone those and my hand troubles would fade and I would forget about it. Yeah, I never went to the doctor's. It is happening again this year. And I am a hand freak and trust me my hand is so not a nice picture whenever it hits me, farewell bony hand and sexy fingers... Anyway... I finally did some research on the internet... and apparently I have the Raynaud's Syndrome. I have all the symptoms. It can't be cured, you might get some limb amputated if you are unlucky enough. In three words: I AM FUCKED. To be clear, at this very moment I am wearing a glove on my right hand cause it is cold. Whenever I get my computer back in action, the warming mouse (yes this is exactly what I own, you envy me now, don't you :P) is coming out as well, it clicks very loudly but hey, I'd rather have my hand attached to my body ;). They say I should quit drinking caffeinated drinks and also quit smoking. Guess which one I am going to do first... Are you out of your mind!!! I am not quiting the two things that bring brightness in my early mornings! I better find me someone who will keep me warm, that is the only solution... Any volunteers? Any? Ah, well, I'll just dig out my woolen socks that my grannie knitted for me and get me some woolen gloves.

On the cool side... I have a syndrome!!! Ha!

#64 Fellow engineer, help...

Така, за междуредията... ми не знам к'во да ги правя. Ако текста не е форматиран всичко си ок, ама като дам justify и бам, редовете се натискат кой да е най-отгоре. На мен не ми се човърка в настройките, понеже отдавна не си заслужавам титлата инженер. Така, че приемам предложения и съвети как да го оправя това чудо.

#63 FUCK!

FUCK FUCK FUCK

ETA: Yeah... I only wish I had the guts to just take off. If only it wasn't my BD this weekend... Damn it, I am so not waiting for it and all the upcoming unexpected huge mistakes this week...

#62 PC piss on me!

After 4 days of struggle, sweat and a lot, I repeat, a lot of swearing and annoyance I've come to the point where I've lost all my enthusiasm to fix my PC and aslo I've come to the conclusion that the problem is somewhere deep in the soul of one of my hard drives (of course the one that I have most valuable information on). I got so sick of the deep blue screen that appears whenever you install Windows(note: capital letter, Windows have my respect and have nothing to do with my problems) that if I have to see it again (which... I'll have to do at least 2(two) more times, if I am really lucky... that is) I will surely throw up! It is fun the first couple of times and when you reach to the point where you are dangerously close of a two digit number it becomes absurd!

By default NTFS doesn't support DOS, but! if you hit the repair option on the Windows install disk you get into this lovely and oh so good DOS-like environment (DOS was fun, I miss DOS). It had a set of commands that can be executed, pretty much a castrated DOS. My utmost desire for the last 4 days have been to format my C: drive, fully, and not that shit quick format that it would only let me do... So imagine my happiness and surprise when I saw that the "Format" command was available... Format C:, under DOS-kind thing, soooo tempting. I jumped off the chair with excitement, a huge smile occured on my face... I didn't hesitate at all, format c:, are you sure?, of course I am sure, do it now, Y (Enter). 1,2,3...% Completed. YAY it is working. Done. Restart. BAM! The same system file corrupt error! WTF, I just whiped your ass, fucker. What files, what shit, you are deffinitely trying to get me into some mental institution, aren't you. Blue screen(another attempt for repair), C: ->6somethingMB(2somethingMB free), F:->14somethingMB(14somethingMB free) WTF!!! WTF!!! OK, so here I paniced big time. I typed format C:, fucker, F: is not C:!!! I then, prayed that F: is really F: and not E:, cause on E: I have some things that I have only there, please God, help me... Repair function, E:/> dir... Oh, thank God, it's all here, F: was indeed F: which I want to remind is not the fucking C:. I ran the CHKDSK which took like forever, well at least the first 4% took a lot and put me to sleep. When I woke up later, it had stopped at 28% with the lovely message which was something like "We've encountered a fatal error that can not be recovered, you are fucked, go fuck yourself, muahaha for wasting 4 days on me"

Now I am doing a research on how much a new hard drive costs, which actually is not that much, but I so don't want to spend money for it...

I really love my computer. I will do one last attemt tonight and then I'll have to install Windows on my flatmate's new laptop... oh, the jealousy :D

#61 Dance with me

Last night I watched this show... dance contest or something.
Oh, the idiocy and lack of rhythm! I can't believe what people are able to do and make complete asses of themselves only to get shown on TV. Yes, sure, it was a great laugh and yes they tend to show only the biggest idiots which can only make you appreciate this more:



The comments of my flat mates and friends were... well mostly drooling, the guys got hardons and the gals...all became gay for 2 minutes...

#60 A brutal murder!

An accident happened last night...

I killed... I killed... Oh, God, I killed my pyjamas! *bursts into tears*

They were old and worn off, b...b...but... they were my favourite! Seriously, I almost cried when my foot came out through not where it was supposed to.

It is not funny!

I had them for 3 years(I told you they were old), we don't have those in Bulgaria and they had sheep and it said "Sheepy time" and they were really comfortable and I am really sad now. My flatmates laughed at me and if you think about it is really stupid to grieve over some stuff, pyjamas, but it is just so sad... I loved those :(
They are now neatly folded and... in the trash bin.

I will miss you! :'(

ETA: Yes, they are torn at the crotch and NO, it is not because of too much masturbation!

#59 P. bear (and an ETA)

And among those there should be the new species P. Bear...

The winter is coming. The weather is getting cold. It is getting dark at 18:00h. And my body suddenly decides that it needs the massive 11 hours of sleep. WTF. This is not napping! This is a nice long deep winter sleep! Last year I had the same problem... and it is starting again :(. I come home from work, feeling tired, then I decide to have a half an hour nap and then I just forgot to wake up. I am not happy about it. This is ridiculous! I am not a 90-year-old granny, I should be more live and vivid. Spending the whole evening and night in bed is just plain insane. Things happen, things are being said and I miss everything, because P. bear has to hibernate. Oh, come on! At least before I wasn't sleeping so deep and I had the slightest idea what was going on around me. Now... I am like dead :(. You can't create memories while sleeping...(this is a bad attempt to translate an old Bulgarian saying). Someone should smack me really hard and take me out of this state... Please...

ETA:
-Who are you?
-Ninja.
-Then why are you so slow?
-I am a turtle ninja!

LAUGH PEOPLE!!! IT IS FUNNY!

#58 Yahoo! Mail and last night

Oh, the dirty bastards!!!
You don't do things like this without a warning...
YIKES!!!
Yahoo! changed the layout of my mailbox!!! Fuckers!!! Without a warning!!! Without asking me!!!

Now don't get me wrong... not that I don't like the new stuff (I haven't really explored it) but it is confusing, especially early in the morning...

ETA: I found the button for getting back my classic mail layout... I want to click it but I will give the new thingy a chance.
ETA2: Nope, I couldn't do it... Good old mailbox is back on!

ETA1: I need to learn to express myself better in English and also... learn some new and cool words... I had a great and funny (in my humble opinion) story to tell, wrote it, read it, deleted it (yes, yes... it sounded sooo lame and blah...) Hmmm, I wonder should I try to tell a short version...
Went to visit a friend. Ran out of alcohol. Couldn't find keys to go out and get alcohol. Couldn't find friend's sister to come and unlock the door(when you cheat on your boyfriend, you can answer the phone to your sister, she knows the lover!). Couldn't ring friend's boyfriend(with a set of keys) to come and unlock the door(pay your bill on time, man!). Drank shitty beer left overs. Spend 3 hours panicking and making ridiculous plans for lame attempts to get some alcohol(waking up neighbours to pass some rakia through the balcony, making a sheetrope... yeah the usual, you know...). Boyfriend found on ICQ. Sister rang back. Keys found next to a cupboard thingie in the hallway(those just get in the way, don't they). Boyfriend came, sister came. Boyfriend and sister really pissed. Three sets of keys, no alcohol, 2 a.m. and time to go home. Seriously, I laughed my ass off at the end. It is funny, if you are me!

#57 Annoyance

I think that it is very good for one to love their country and be patriotic and all. But only to a certain extent. I love Bulgaria and I am proud of my language but I just don't understand some people... Yes, there is the freedom of speech, blah blah, one has the right to express their opinion and blah blah. I am annoyed.

Today I had the luck to read a few blogs, that had some rules about commenting on them. The bloggers clearly stated that the certain blogs are written in Cyrillic only, unless impossible to use Cyrillic and will not tolerate comments by people who use Latin characters or "chat" characters. All comments that are not written in Cyrillic will be deleted, no matter how great of opinion they state. As a reason for this it was said that they manage the blogs, so they make the rules.

Now I can understand their choice to write exclusively in Bulgarian with cyrillic characters, as I choose to write in rotten English :) (everybody has their own reasons for this and I respect it), but to forbid others to express themselves the way they want (if not offensive and rude, that is)... is just a big contradiction. You will ask how is this contradiction... well, those people also stated that they won't tolerate any form of racism, discrimination and so on. Well, excuse me, but you'll ignore my thoughts based on the fact that I use a different character set, if this is not discrimination I will smack myself. I wouldn't be so annoyed if they didn't break their own rules and I really respect the fact that it is indeed their own internet space, but come on!

And for the record I want to say something, that might earn me some black points...
I am a racist. Not always, sometimes only. I tend to generalize judging by single experience. But! I never keep my doors closed and less and less I judge people by the cover, because it is nasty and it is not right, and I try to change myself...

#56 :D

They are pink...
They are soft...
They are pure art...
I want them in me, erm... I want me in them...

#55 :(

#54 awww

Those totally made my day... :D

#53 ZUNE...

I am a Windows lover, I admit. It has it's faults but hey... me likes it and can work with it, I don't mind restarting my computer from time to time, because I never turn it off anyway and it needs its little breaks... In general I am pretty happy and satisfied with my OS and wouldn't change it... never! (saying this now... I sense how my computer is suddenly crashing just to prove me wrong and confirm the saying "never say never". Ah, well it won't be the first and it sure won't be the last time I reinstall ;) )

Now... on Sunday I became a proud owner of this baby...



It looks pretty and cool and I was all "WOW" and "hihi".
But my utter and pure joy lasted only till the point when I started exploring it.
Oh, oh... before I continue, this is the official site, which by the way is totally useless (at least for me it was and not that I spent a lot of time there...)

I connected the device to the computer and the battery started charging... "Cool!" I thought. But hey... where is it, I can't find it. The computer made the default sound for new device, I looked everywhere... "You beeped, God damn it! Don't hide from me!". Apparently it is impossible for the computer to recognize it as an external device. Aaaaaah! This is why the only instruction that came with the box said, insert disk, plug in device, work! Riiight! You stupid woman, of course the software comes first...
I am happy I have a nice internet connection. You need internet in order to install it, I don't dare wonder what would have happened if my net was down at this moment... Actually, I would have had a cute thingy to just LOOK AT! The software installation took forever... I am still figuring out how to work with it, but I am getting close... I now have some music uploaded and shit. But, really, how hard it is to get a freaking 12 sec .mp3 on there? I will tell you... it took me at least 10 mins to do so... I mean... "Hellou ;)! Work with me here! Please... ".
It is a media player, meaning you can play music, clips and view pics. Guess my excitement about playing clips... but alas! Whaaaaaa? It doesn't support .avi? What player doesn't support .avi? .wmv, .mp4 and some other shit that noone watches anyway are ok. At this moment I could feel a tear rolling down my cheek, oh the pain in my heart... So, I spent half an hour more to search for a nice converter from .avi to .wmv or .mp4 or whatever works. I have that software now... it takes quite a long time to convert though. It wasn't enough that Zune software is complicated, but here you are some more bad interfaced programs to learn... The results from my attempt were nice and oh, the newly created video file took a little longer than forever to get synchronized with the player. But, hey, I figured I will do this at night. One night I convert and the next I upload... My plan is brilliant... I feel like crying. Why it has to be so complicated?
What else I could share... The sound is pretty satisfying and can get pretty loud... Not much options included... shuffle and repeat... that is it. It has radio, WOHOO, this is a huge '+' for me and a dream come true (kinda... shhh I love radio, tune on 93,9 MHz or listen online). It has the cutest and softest case(it is not a case but can't think of other word now... bag?!) ever.

I still need to learn and experiment with it... The best is yet to come, I bet!
ZUNE!

ETA: Oh, just a little thing to add here... So you need internet to install, meaning that it gets the needed files online. What i couldn't understand is how the hell it does the installation online and then freaking tells me that there is an update available and I have an older version of the firmware... "You do this online, fucker, just download the latest software! There is not freaking need for me to do this two times!"

#52 I am full of shit sometimes...

My brain takes massive care of me. Recently I've noticed that in moments of emotion overflow, I react, I have all those thoughts and then... when I calm down (which is actually a complete shut off) I just don't remember. I know how I felt in general, but what I've said or done... is covered in mist. Last night I had some hard moments and I did write about it here. I don't know what I've said. I didn't know what I've said a couple of hours after blogging. I find this very weird, because I want to remember. It is easier now, because it is written down and I can read it, but this is an exception (not all the time I am at the computer logged in to blogger). I think I've worked on this ability of mine for quite a long time of my life, subconsciously of course. And there comes some tough moment, which is not necessarily that bad, but my brain turns on the autopilot... This is how I work out my problems, I just switch them off. Now I come to realize that I am not that optimistic after all, I am just a chicken that hides away... I stick my head in the sand, if I don't see the bad stuff then it is not there, right? Stupid me!

A few posts before I was admiring life and it's funny ways of crossing people's lives. I remember when I was little, everyone had these notebooks with all kinds of questions and we used to give them to all our friends to fill them out. "What is your motto?" was in every notebook. I didn't have one back then. I do now. Everything happens for a reason! It really does. Life knows its tiny paths... I do fall into traps on my way but there is always a reason for that and there is always someone or something that will give you a kick in the ass (this sounds a little hard, sometimes a few words are more than enough) and there I will be on the road again...

I am a happy person, I will stay that way!

FUCK IT ALL!!!

How much can one take? How many fronts can one fight? Can you fight the world? Do you want to fight the world, knowing that the battle is already lost? How much does it hurt when you know you lost a friend? How much it hurts knowing that someone you care about, no matter what is avoiding you and hiding from you? How much it hurts knowing you are lying the whole world? How much it hurts knowing you are one big disappointment? OH, how it hurts knowing you are hurting someone else...

I want to run away, far away...

I am not a bad person and yet all I seem to do are bad things.

How can one be good, how can one be loved when all they do is fuck up and let down...

This is me...

I can't live without my friends and then I hurt them so much...

The vote is off.
I overrated myself.
I don't deserve your trust.
Be happy, cause I am not...
I am so fucked!!!

#47 Cameltoe?

Have you seen the movie "The weatherman"? Hm, as far as I remember there was this reference about "cameltoe"... (quick google check-> I was right).

As much as I am embarrassed to say this... I am fucked. Oh, God!

So, I have to go to this party tonight... Nova television celebrates: new studios/new building/new TV season (we delivered the equipment, so we are invited). Riiiight! It is at the ridiculous time of 17:30, which means that I am sitting at work in my nice clothes and kinda high heels. However, my lovely pants that make my ass look great are not cooperative today and me sitting on the chair all day, crossing my legs and etc. and my pants kinda dig in, if you know what i mean, is not nice. I am now worried, cause well, you notice things like this... If I don't work around this somehow, my crotch will get quite a lot of looks tonight and I don't actually want this kind of attention there.

Now, feel free to laugh and mock me as much as you want, cause it is indeed very funny in a way :), but please pray with me it gets fixed by the end of the day. I don't want to end up on TV with millions of viewers... aaaaaaa!

#46

I just kissed my roomie on the cheeks for good night... How freaking cute is that.

Apparently we've been friends for 13 years now...(let me hear you all go "awww").

Life can be really strange... you never know what will happen and when or where you are going to meet increadible people (not talking about the roomie here ;)).

Thank you for being my friends and trusting me so much. This means the world to me. I love you all...

#45 Tests are so much fun!!!

This is freaking cool...

#44 :D

Today. A man on the bus spit out the window... The wind blew some of it back inside. It landed on a lady's face. She didn't understand what it actually was... She was looking at her shoes or something, so she just wiped it with her hand and then it was as if nothing happened. Now let me hear all go "EWWW" here, oh and let's not forget "We all wish P. gets her oun car soon, so she doesn't have to be traumatized on the public transport again"

I cut my hair today... Almost was late for my appointment because there were no buses and I had to walk. Then I got back home and then... THEN!!!

It is my roommate's birthday tomorrow(it is today already, cause I didn't finish the post last night). I promised her we would go to Kaufland , Mladost(all who live in Sofia should know and all who know where I live should know that it is not so far away...). WROOOOOOOOOOM!!! We took the car, my dad's car, that is now parked in front of my place. WROOOOOOOOOOM!!! It was evening, it was dark, I drove! I had to make 3 left fucking turns on the way there, one of which... no traffic light, no nothing. It was scary man! Oh, I think I forgot to specify... I got my driving license 7 years ago (yes, that long, don't mock, I am perfectly aware that I am old!) in my home town which has only 3 working traffic lights, two of which weren't actually working at the time being (cause there was no point in them, tiny town, duh!). After I got my license I think I drove like a couple of times more, again in the tiny town. It was my first driving experience in the big city. I could say I was alone, because my roomie is an unexperienced driver herself... fun fun fun! The first and the worst left turn I did brilliant (am I modest or what). Waht followed was a traffic light, I was first line, I was going straight. Nothing scary, right? Right!? Well, you are WROOOONG! My car went off three times. I repeat, THREE times. I tried to stay as calm as possible, I turned on the emergency lights and stuff. People were horning at me and I am pretty sure my mum got mentioned quite a few times (for the nonbulgarians here, "Fuck your mother" is the most common swearing in the Bulgarian language and of course in Bulgarian it sounds so lovely). I missed the green light, as I am sure the cars behind me did as well... It turned out I kinda forgot to switch on gear. Ah, well... it happens :P. Everything else right to the store went perfect and I even parked pretty well :))). We got the stuff for the party and... we headed back home... I drove off, being very careful and all, I went through two traffic lights + a left turn (seriously I have no idea why I am so afraid of those), then I switched gear... second, third... I look at the speed thingy to check if I am not going too fast. OOOPS. P. forgot to turn on the lights... Oh, the embarrassment. OMG! I mean... it was 10 in the evening, people! Who drives with lights off in the middle of the night... suicides, I know. But... but... I want to live. At that moment I kinda shit myself. That is some dangerous thing to do and I am really gratefull that noone got injured or something. Lights on, hands shaky... we got home safe. But that is not all... It took me about 5 to 7 mins to park the car, which again ended up brilliant ;). While I was parking, a guy parked next to me. Now, just so you have an idea how brilliant I was... he waited untill I was fully parked and car engine was off, then he waited for me to get out of the car and asked "You are not leaving early in the morning, are you? I've just painted my car". You should see me and the roomie. We pissed ourselves laughing. I was so proud of myself and people doubt my abilities... hehe. God, I had so much fun last night...

By the way, spell check doesn't work, so please excuse any stupid mistakes I have made. Also, note to self... learn to post right away, when the emotion is gone, it doesn't turn out as nice...!!!

#43 Weekend recapitulation, I think

Tonguering is back on/in. It's been about 2 months. I had the slightest trouble getting it back in, nothing scary or that painful. One day of discomfort after that and that is all.

Yesterday was a fine day. Unfortunately I missed it all, because I spent all day in bed. Again I made a statement which I will probably not keep. But seriously, people, rakiya + loads of vodka = not good. Actually it was so darn good then, I had loads of fun, the music was great, the vodka was Smirnoff Green Apple (needless to say, my favourite) which I tend to drink very fast and without any juice on the side... OK, I lied, I had a glass of juice which was plenty for the 3 big vodkas I had. I don't think I drank all the juice, I don't remember. I don't remember other things from that night as well, but it is only natural. Also, it is hard to text people when being extremely drunk, even I got pretty confused by what I was trying to say... ah, well... So, the conclusion is... I should drink more often. I used to be so good at it and look at me now... a couple of rakiyas at home, some vodka and a lost day. I remember the good old days when I was able to drink half a bottle of vodka and I wasn't even drunk... oh, the bliss... but of course getting drunk from very little also has it's good side... you don't spend that much money on alcohol.

Back to work today... the good thing is that I am going away on Wednesday. I only hope I will get lucky with the weather...

There is the smallest chance I will be alone at home this weekend. It sounds so good and so unrealistic. Please just keep your fingers crossed for me...

#42 Gay orgy

So, last two days I spent reading a blog...

I don't know why I even started reading it. The name was strange and didn't really pay any attention to it. It is about a gay guy who every 6-8 weeks holds a gay orgy at his flat. I know that some of you will instantly go "EWWWW" and "You are crazy, why did you read this", but it was really interesting (well at least for me it was). He is registered to a site where gay people have profiles and stuff. Everyone who wants to participate has to state so by a message or e-mail, showing a clear face picture. The guy has some requirements about the people who could come and I was well impressed by his will not to make any kinds of exceptions, no matter what. On the blog he shares some of his experience organizing the event, announces the date of the next orgy and the fun part ... posting parts of his communication with some (in my opinion) retarded men wanting cock action :). Seriously, I read it all from first to last post. I was just fascinated by the way this guy writes, clean cut! But also... I don't know but I was surprised that people actually do private sessions like this and that so many attend. But that is only because I tend to be a little more conservative and a fan to less crowded fuck sessions, oh and also the fact that you wouldn't know anyone there, although if you don't know the people it might be easier... but yeah how would I know ;)

(maybe later I will write more about it)

...

It is not easy to make that step outside. You just stand at the door and wonder, you start doubting yourself and your decisions. You don't want to make that little step because you don't want to hurt everything that you've known all your life. It is not easy to give up the known and shut the door behind you. I don't have the guts to do it. But staying inside or just holding that door open and being at the doorstep is not the right decision either. Then you hurt all that is waiting for you outside. I am stuck in the middle, I hurt and actually I don't give a shit about me, but there, no matter what, you always end up hurting someone, someone you deeply care about. It tears me apart...

Please forgive me, I mean no harm, I am just a coward.

I don't expect understanding, neither comments on this one, this is for me to feel better (which I don't). And for all that wish to comment, for now I choose the known, please respect that...

*Picture taken from here

#40

I had a nice good night experience last night... which means my rambling about no privacy continues, so you may stop reading right here and right now cause it won't be interesting as the rest of this place...

I was freaking tired cause work was kind of busy and then I am still recovering from the cold, so I decided to go to bed a little bit earlier. In a few minutes when I was already starting to fall asleep, one roomie comes and starts making her bed and making little noises and yes... Then the other one comes and states that she thinks of reading a book (hint hint... -> lights on). So the first one goes to bed and all of a sudden decides that she can't fall asleep unless the TV is on (I have a tuner on the computer). I usually have no problem with the lights, although I prefer them to be off :) as any normal person or one that doesn't fear darkness), but come on! I am dying for some rest and the last thing I want is the freaking stupid TV on. So I explained that I didn't want this and the result...-> 15 minutes of senseless, bullshit, annoying talking. And of course I preferred the TV rather than listening to my friend... So yeah, I got enough sleep NOT!!! I suppose this is all my fault though, I have to be tougher, but she just broke up with her boyfriend and shit and I am so kind, you know... just a wussy.

My arms are uncooperative today... late this afternoon they went all bloodless and numb, now the same thing is happening again. I am just a little bit worried, cause I can't really see my veins, but which is strange I can easily move my fingers and stuff, usually I can't. WEIRD!

It is travel month this month... Next week I am going for a 3 day business trip. To the lovely sunny beach and this hotel. Envy me! Oh, and now envy me more... look at the business I will be doing and to be clear this is a SONY Eastern European dealers meeting... now observe...

I think I was very stressed out today and I am pretty sure I hurt one person or another in one way or another. Being stressed doesn't excuse me, but whoever feel hurt by me or anything I've said... please know that I am really sorry.

Have a good night all!

Oh, I almost forgot... and I really hope to put a smile on your face... please visit: http://www.biertijd.com/mediaplayer/?itemid=3954

#39 Ranting...

ETA: This is a total mess and totally non interesting, I haven't read it and I recommend you to do the same. Proceed at your own risk...

Today I sat in front of the computer with the intention to share my experience from my little trip to the Netherlands... Well this ain't happening. It is not that there are no stories to tell, on the contrary. But my mind just refuses to cooperate and all I can come up is some lame shit, which I don't want to put on blogger. I should seriously start taking notes, because after my first impressions my brain usually creates a blog-suitable story. And of course my brilliance tells me that I am so brilliant and I will memorize it all, but alas... I am secretly hoping instead of a notebook and a pen to get a laptop...

On a different note... It is getting crowded at home. Imagine 3 people in a room and all the stuff of the 3d person is around the room. Me is very not happy about this situation, me can't do a thing about it because she is my friend. So the pre-story... Imagine 5 year relationship, she moves in with her boyfriend in his flat. She cheats, he finds out, gives her another chance, things seem OK, until one lunch break he dumps her. She has nowhere to go, me and my friends open our arms for her. She is a nice girl really, but damn I so miss my privacy now. This situation should last till the end of the month when one flatmate moves out. So my friend and my other flatmate, who by the way also got dumped by her boyfriend, who is a flatmate as well and they still sleep in the same bed, will go to the soon-to-be-free room in the flat. So, I am now counting the days till the end of the month, although on the other hand, I will miss the flatmate who is moving out. And I am starting to get confused.

My parents car is in front my place... I don't drive it. I am a dickhead, who is also scared to drive alone in Sofia. And using the car while it is here would made my life so much easier. I have absolutely no problems driving in my hometown, after all we only have 3 traffic lights there...

I am sick. I have high temperature, sore throat and also, my biggest problem, my nose is blocked and running all the time. I had troubles falling asleep last night, because in order to be able to breathe I had to lie on my back and I just can't fall asleep while on my back. I thought of masturbating then, cause this always calms me down, but how... with two other people in the room. I was going to go and see the doctor this morning... today she goes to the hospital in the afternoon... hihihi, as always I am fucked.

I have some more things to complain... but I won't do it, cause I am pretty sure that whoever read everything till this point severely hates me ... MUAHAHAHA

In reply to tr's comment ;)

After some editing and change of pics... this goes up...

#I forgot to check... and it is 37. Netherlands...

Yo people, in a few hours I am heading back to BG. I kinda don't want to do that. 

It is great here, except all the clouds and the occasional rain(and by occasional I mean 20 mins of rain and 5 mins of heavy clouds) Yesterday I saw the sun!!! Amazing. Amsterdam is great. I went for a few little moments to the red light district and apparently I look very virgin cause I got offered to watch some educational film. I accepted... not! Was to a coffee shop. They didn't have spacecake, I got disappointed but after a few tokes of a nice joint everything was fiiiiine :) And yeah..., I broke my promise not to smoke weed anymore, but heh, I am in Amsterdam... I think I can be forgiven, after all I mentioned God's name a few times last night... mmmm Uhmm anyway... Prague was awesome, let's hope on our way back we will spend another evening there. I wasn't a beer drinker... I like beer now. 

OK I have to go to the Central Station now... I am very sad... I will miss...

Next time blogging from BG.

P.S. Mac... eh...

FUCK FUCK FUCK

My little kitten... the one on my avatar... FUCK!!!
This cannot be fucking real... and I fucking need to find a solution very fast... I don't want to lose him. He can be a good boy, he used to be a good boy. FUCK!
I need someone to take care of him, until I think of something. Dad won't keep him much longer. HELP!

#35 Creature Of The Night*

My beauty is alive!!!

Do I have to be worried because I am totally in love with my watch?

Of course mine is not as shiny and flawless as the one on the picture. But to me it is perfect, we've shared so many moments together, good and bad, and of course it looks so goddamn good on my wrist!

*this is not a mad burst of my brilliance, this is the official name my watch has

#34

I've noticed something... every time I get my period I feel the urge to post. And this post is the proof of that. As usual I have no idea what I am going to write about.

A while ago I planned a big post about Minesweeper(this is a tiny little game that runs on Windows computers), but then while I was doing a little research I suddenly became very depressed, cause ...well... apparently I suck at that game. And I used to, I repeat, used to think I was doing pretty good. So, there will be no big post about Minesweeper, unless I get slightly closer to the world record of 37 seconds on Expert mode, which of course will be never :)). Well, at least my love towards that game will last forever. The game rocks, people!

Now I am going to talk a little about another game I play. I play online and occasionally I win money, very little money. It is fun even...

I interrupt this post to make an announcement:

I AM GOING TO AMSTERDAM!!! HA! How cool is that, for almost 2 weeks. Now tell me how not to love my job!!! And in case you missed it... I AM GOING TO AMSTERDAM!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOHOOO!

So where was I... It is fun even playing even without the money part, but hey, who doesn't like some cash. I am talking about the Texas Hold'em Poker. And before you start worrying about me becoming hooked and losing all my savings... for now I have a clear head. I only play the so-called Free Rolls, where I compete against 2000-12000 other people for like a couple of dollars. One time I won 16$ I finished 4th out of 5000. That made me very proud. Today I won 1,5$ - 21st out of 6000. Now on my account I have 5,12$. Yes, I lost a lot of it, but I don't care. I play for fun and the money is just a nice stimulation :D. I promise as soon as I win some big tournament I will treat you ;). Oh, by the way... I AM GOING TO AMSTERDAM! hehe I am kidding, my flatmate wants to take me to a live tournament, he said he will pay me the buy-in. I laughed at him. Next time he offers I will just agree :)

On a whole different note... Do ETAs have to be at the end of the post or I can sneak them in?

ETA: Blogger confuses me. I want to smack it, it doesn't do what I want it to do...

ETA1: I am very sad. My watch has stopped working! This feels my eyes with tears. I read somewhere that there was some mystical thing about the time when the watch had stopped... but I don't remember where. I will ask google... The time is ...WTF!!!!!! I mean WTF!!!!!! How I haven't noticed it before... I thought it had stopped at 3 o'clock... OK... 8(this for sure):54(I am pretty certain):19(here I have more doubts)

#33 Hot stuff

Yesterday we had a temperature drop... almost 10C°. So from 45C° it reached to the livable 35C°. (rereading my shit now... that first sentence doesn't seem to have any connection with what will follow, well maybe a tiny one)

I went home after work with the intention to enjoy the chill evening, playing around with my computer. Oh, I played with it alright! The moment I entered the room, I sensed trouble. I sat on my lovely chair with my lovely yellow pillow(which is only for butt comfort and is an add-on that my mum was wise enough to suggest). I started sweating ... hm it was supposed to be normal temperature and yet it felt extremely hot... There was this massive heatwave coming from somewhere under my desk. I put my feet on the computer case(yes, they love it there, my poor case...) and they started to burn. WTF! I put them back on the floor, I made my most concerned face and pretended to be thinking through what was going on under there. And it was easy. You know why? Because it was extremely quiet in my room. I listened, but couldn't hear a thing. So I leaned and oh, the surprise, the fan on my power supply was not working. WTF! It was a relatively new one, only like 3 (or maybe 4, but let's pretend it was 3) years old. Yes, I keep my computer case on the floor, yes, it gets extremely dirty and dusty there (I vacuum and clean it every like a few months, I like my computer nice and shiny...weirdo!!!) , yes, I never turn off my computer (I restart, but turn off is a no), yes, it was extremely hot the last few days, BUT NOOOOOO! Why do things like this happen exactly when I'd planned to relax with the computer? Well... shit happens, some will say. Now, I am a graduate engineer, computer science... WOW! Go me! I took a screw driver and took out the broken power supply. It comes in a metal case. My brilliance decides that I am so great and I know all, so I tried to open the box, which is actually a very easy job, but since I hadn't cleaned my computer in a while and one tiny screw had hidden under a thick layer of dirt, it took me like half an hour poking, hitting, scratching and suchlike at the box, I was dashing my head in the wall wandering WTF was the box's problem and why it wouldn't surrender at my supremacy. Alas, when all the dirt got all over my clothes and hands and thanks to my eagle sighting I was finally able to open the box. Inside I found nothing wrong(this is only because I know shit about those things, but it feels really nice to pretend that I know more than shit, people that know even less that shit respect me ;)). So after getting dirtier, I managed to confirm my first observation... the fan of my power supply wasn't working! I couldn't fix it, of course. I am so brilliant, I know. I closed the box, cleaned myself and the rest of the computer and today I plan on getting a new one. All in all, I wasted an hour to confirm something I already knew, which at this minute feels really pointless.

I am now saving money for a nice, neat laptop.
Wish me luck!

There is no place like home!

After 8 years of terror and fear...
They are back where they belong!
The plane just landed and they set foot on Bulgarian land!
Tears of joy!
Welcome home!

#31 Ramble

So, Emo moved out officially on Saturday. I wish him all the best and good luck in whatever he plans to do with his life from now on.

Friday night was the send off party. Oh, I got so pissed. Seriously, half a bottle of gin when I hadn't eaten all day was a BAAAAAAAD idea. I was very sad. I am still very sad. I miss him a lot. He is one of the bestest guys I know. I am sad but also happy for him, he is probably lying on the hot Bourgas sand at the minute, sipping beer, cooling off in the sea. Hehe.

What else... no real holiday for me this year. I plan the first week of August to take some rest and, oh the excitement, I am going to spend it at home. No sea, no mountains. I am pathetic.

I am sorry guys, my mood is not very nice right now... I might play me some Pink(live performance) just to get me going... HAHA, I am so funny.

#30 P!nk

Uuuu, 3 weeks since my last post. Don't you just love how dedicated I am to this blog.

Sooo, P!nk came to Bulgaria, stayed here 3 days and left. How cool is that? Huh? Huh? She was everywhere - TV, radio, newspapers, internet. All sounds cool, doesn't it. But guess what, there was not one frame, not one picture, not even an interview without the previous ones of her. And I know you are smart and all but just in case... there was NO concert. I got a ticket, I got excited, I went to the stadium. NO concert. P!ink is sick, was sick, whatever. So she had some throat problems, postponed the concert. Everywhere I read, she is feeling better blah blah, then on the second date for the concert... oops, sorry guys but just return your tickets and get your money back. I don't want my fucking money back, I wanted to see P!nk. Bastards. (Oh, wow, I just noticed that I haven't put and exclamation mark yet, damn, I suppose I am not so pissed anymore) Anyway, my point is, for fuck's sake don't play with the fans like this. I think that the reason there was no concert is that there were just not enough sold tickets. And maybe she was sick indeed because she moved one concert for later date, but why not move our concert? Heh, some stupid Bulgarians, what wait, is Bulgaria a country, is it on the map? There was this crap statement of a manager in front of a hotel, but still no sign of P!nk. Did she even dragged her ass here? It is a fact now that I don't want to listen to her stuff now, I suppose it is my disappointment and I hope it'll pass soon cause I love P!nk.

I wish you all the best and get well soon. And maybe someday I will save some money and go to one of your concerts in some big city in a big country, where there is no way you could cancel like that! Kisses.

#29 Tongue ache...

So, my tongue hurts. An awful lot!

OK, I lie, it doesn't hurt that much but it hurts and it feels uncomfortable.

Now before you make any conclusions, I would like to specify that my tongue hasn't been involved in any exercise whatsoever.

One thing I will tell you, some people are lying bastards! Everyone is walking around and tells how the hole in your tongue will heal within hours. Well, that is bullshit! My blissful laziness just proved this wrong, big time. So, what is the story... since I love my mum very much and I try to upset her as little as possible, whenever I go home I take that little metal attachment off my tongue. Let me open a little bracket here...(I had huge fights with my mum about this, she wouldn't talk to me and cried every time, so I thought this is so no worth it and now I cheat...) Anyway, on 18 May I went home... took off my tongue ring and of course I forgot to put it back on or whenever I remembered I was too lazy to go and sanitize and blah blah. I finally gained some strength last night and made a tiny effort and now the tongue ring is back in place. It feels nice and sexy and the hole in my tongue was as big as ever. I know what you will say... "Ah, but see it hurts" and I will answer "Yes, it hurts but the hole is still the same! Ha!" The pain now is absolutely nothing compared to the pain I felt whenever I did the piercing, so I am not really allowed to complain...

On a very different note... smurf sex is so not amusing when the participants are not animated characters!

#28 Beware of the monster!

Wooh!
I had some busy week.
Went to Borovetz(Rila mountain) to do some work and then bam! off to Albena(Black sea). I had a lot to drink, got drunk a few times, danced and shit, did some work. But most important got some nice tan. I thought a lot about posting a picture of my brown self... and... yep... I will upload one. Now let me hear a big round of applause for my utter courage of reveling my "beautiful" (note the quotes!!! I am being sarcastic here!) body. Warning! People who fear monsters don't look!
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And I know I don't look that brown, but hey, this is huge progress for my skin and I am so very proud.
Oh, and by the way this post was supposed to be long and me telling everithing but suddenly I am way too lazy to do it, so you can just enjoy me! ;)

#27 Let's play!

Happy children's day, y'all!!!
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Also... Happy Birthday to the coolest grandad, i.e. MY grandad!!! I'll drink a rakiya for you later!
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Now, I am sure you are all well aware of this cute dude, but I really feel like putting him on my blog...


Credit goes to ICQ

#26 Hm...

I got a wake up poke last night!
I guess I was far away in dreamland, if my roomie had to get up and poke me so I could wake up.

People, stop, don't worry... nothing bad and scary happened!

Apparently I woke her up first... with my snoring!
I can't believe this, seriously. I know I snore from time to time, but I've always had a good reason for that - being very drunk or sick. Last night I was neither drunk nor sick. I feel sliiiightly embarrassed but it is also quite entertaining, if you are me that is. It must have been really loud and annoying, cause it is hard to make my roomie wake up in the middle of the night and what about making her walk the three steps to my bed and poke me. A lot of effort, I am telling you! I wonder should I spend some of my so valuable (riiiight, even I don't believe my 'I'm so busy and sophisticated' shit) time, trying to find the reason for this midnight concert i performed. Or wait... I will just keep snoring like a pig and annoy my roomie even more, that'll be fun. If this continues, I might end up waking up dead some morning. Oh, wait! I can't wake up if i am dead, can I?! Anyway, I think you got my point, if I don't fix my lungs (maybe by smoking less) and my throat (syrup, I will get some sweet cough syrup) ... I might end up sleeping on the balcony. Sweet. Well, at least it is summer ;).

Oh, by the way... tonight I might get drunk (the boss has some ... More snoring. Yes! 'Houston, we have a problem'. Pray for me, people, I don't want to die so young and green and still a virgin!

#25 "The court dismisses the accusations"

"The court dismisses the accusations", judge Salem Hamrouni told a 10-minute criminal court hearing in Tripoli.

The five Bulgarian nurses - Kristiana Valcheva, Nassia Nenova, Valia Cherveniashka, Valentina Siropoulo and Snezhana Dimitrova and the Palestinian doctor Ashraf Ahmed Juma were acquitted on charges of slander.

The medics were accused of making false accusations that Libyan officials had tortured them to extract confessions in an investigation into HIV infections at Benghazi Children's Hospital where they worked.

They were beaten, electrified and humiliated.
If someone runs electric current through your body and you could feel your heart stopping, would you lie to stop the pain and save yourself? If someone force a dog to fuck you would you lie to save your ass?
I know I would!

#24 PUSH THE BUTTON (you won't regret it)!

I am so proud of myself... it took me all day to put up this shitty player here, but it was worth all the effort!!!

I know that my readers already know this song, but for those of you who had the misfortune to not want to be here and yet you are reading this... PUSH THE PLAY BUTTON!!!

This is the greatest cover ever! Tony Braxton can only envy the talent of those guys...

ETA: I just realized that you can't actually see the song title before you play it. Ah well... I don't really care, the song is still brilliant!!!

ETA1: I just want to add one more thing... the credit for the lovely title goes to... drumroll... these guys. Magnificent.

#23 The madnes of the city rulers

Spring is here. The grass is green, the trees are green and blossoming, little birdies fly around and sing their songs. A beautiful picture, even in the big city.

Whenever spring comes, there is this bell in people's minds that rings and tells us "It's time to clean up your shit, help the nature keep it's beauty, put some effort for your own good and the good of others" (or, yeah, whatever, I hope you know what I mean).

Now, apparently, the bell in our beloved mayor Boyko Borisov had rung... ding.dong.ding.dong. It is all good, you know. I haven't seen Sofia with clean streets for a very long time. Just to open a bracket here - Sofia is the dirtiest city in Bulgaria and, no, it is not because it is the capital and it is big, it is just dirty, we are pigs really, we can't keep it clean. So once a year a miracle happens and someone up above decides that spending some extra money to clean the streets is not such a bad idea. So this kind of miracle is taking place now.

I walked 5 blocks to get to work today. I walked on just cleaned streets. It felt good. Everything looked fresh and clean and it smelled clean. I am pretty sure I had a smile on my face because of this.

All good you think and well done... Now let me explain to you why I had to walk 5 blocks today... The brilliant mind of someone who is responsible for all this "Clean Sofia" thing decided that the perfect time for doing this is 7:00 - 16:00h. Streets are closed, cars get towed away just so the big trucks and the cleaners (those are so not the proper names here, but... anyway) can do their work. There are relatively many cars here and closing one street can cause big troubles, now imagine closing 4-5 streets at a time. The traffic jam was huge! This was yesterday, this was today and will be until it's all clean. And it is sooo stupid.

Everywhere in the world massive cleaning like this happens during the night!!! Think people, think... it would have been so much easier for everyone if you cleaned during the night. I and many other people wouldn't be late for work, a lot less nerves would have been spent... Anyway.

You get my big applause for the idea, but next time, please think it through first!

ETA: Oops, forgot to spell check. All is good now ;)

#22 There's nothing like home!

Aaaand I am back from my not so productive trip to LV.

I wish I could tell you more about Vegas, but this place has to be seen and felt. It is good for a week and then you've seen it all. It is impressive though, a little oasis in the middle of the desert. Speaking of the desert... damn the weather there. Hot sun and wind during the day and during the night your ass freezes. My skin has never been so dry. What else... ah, once again I managed to realize that the American food is a total crap, American beer is the king of the crap, seriously people it is... piss. God bless the good old Heineken and Smirnoff.

Oh my lovely Bulgaria... beautiful Bulgaria. Love the nature, love the people, love the spirit!

#21 1 hour 27 mins to the weekend

Sure the title is wrong, but this is what happens when you blog while at work.

I had a tough week, next one is going to be even tougher... niiiiice!

It is the first time I will spend Easter away from home. Ah! I know what you are thinking... she is skipping all the annoying travelling and will rest. Oh, I wish it would be like this... a lot of work needs to get done and many things need to get cared of. "The perfect citizen" you might think... (I know you certain someone giggle to the quote ;) ) ... and here I lost my thought...

Will I be lonely - yes, will I be alone - no. This sounds so sad, doesn't it.

Why do people blog? I've been 'next blog'-ing a lot lately. Most people blog to vent, because they are hurt, depressed or whatever in the same matter. My blog is quite depressing as well, no I haven't read it, I don't read my own shit, but I don't understand why I can't write more about happy stuff. When I am happy I don't need blogger, I have my friends. When I am sad, I come here. Is it cause I don't want my friends to see me sad? And just for the record, I am not sad at the moment, I feel kinda blissful. Which reminds me, oh, I love the spring. I heard a birdie sing today... It took me a while to spot it in between the branches but damn, that was one not so impressive bird, a little smaller than a pigeon, all black, I might even say an ugly bird, but the voice and the song... magic!!! The sun is shining, it is not too hot, it is not too cold, green grass and trees, fresh air... just beautiful. Where is my camera... of course at home, gathering more and more dust. I hope I won't forget it when I go to Vegas... Viiiiiivaaaa, Las Vegas!!!

I will be away from the computer(any computer) for 3 days... oh, I will miss it! Well then I will be enjoying the nature. I want to go to the mountain. Well not now cause there is still snow, but in general...

I had pancakes today... with honey and walnuts... YUM! I also had chicken soup. It was also yum.

Why the hell I am writing this...

This must be one very random post. Eh, well...

Have a nice holiday you all. Let the egg fight begin!!!

ETA: See, the title should have been "1 hour and 21 mins..."

ETA1: Blogger's clock is wrong!!! Have to fix it, but from where?

ETA2: Ha! Who was the blogger genius to put Eastern European Time and, imagine, Eastern European Summer Time! Who would have guessed... not me! Thing like this in places like this should be changing automatically.

ETA3: Blogger annoys me. My post is looking funny and I can't fix it, well I can but I am too lazy. Sorry...

ETA4: As from today I am starting to read what I write. Good Lord... that one was awful, but I promise my English is not as bad as it seems... (riiiight)

#20

How nice it feels to be called stupid several times... I just love it. You try to be good to your friends, to spend as much possible time with everybody, you think of the best way to manage things and to be helpful and so on... And what do you get... Sometimes the person that everybody think is the craziest dickhead turns out to be the most wonderfull and the kindest one and gives you the sweetest hug, even if he is concidered to be the most insensible one.
Anyway, fuck them all.

#19Ракийчице, светая мъченичице!

Dear readers, I want you to listen very carefully now, cause I have a very important thing to tell you...

Never drink too much when the next day you have to get up early and go to work!!!
Oh, my head is killing me!

Also, Bourgas 63 barrel is not better than the regular Bourgas 63 (will supply pictures later, if I survive today).
ETA:
Bourgas 63
Bourgas 63 barrel

I know! Bourgas 63 never gave me a headache and look at me now after drinking some (yes, I don't remember exactly how much) Bourgas 63 barrel. I am telling you this, because everywhere you go you will get lines like "Oh, Bourgas 63 barrel is the best rakia we have". Oh well, they have better and it is just Bourgas 63.
Usually when I get that drunk from rakia I have the magic ability to wake up really early. Today I couldn't do that. I don't even know how I managed to drag my ass to work... I must have drunk quite a lot last night... I couldn't even smoke my cigarette this morning. This is a bad sign. I want my bed! I want to be in it! Right now!

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ETA1: On a very different subject... P!nk is coming to Bulgaria. Damn, I want to go. The problem is I don't want to go alone and I might not be able to find someone of my friend who is willing to pay to see her. Need to sort this one pretty soon!!! I have 5 days to find a fellow P!nk friend.

#18 1, 2, 3, ... and other stuff!

Yes, again was playing around. Numbers, numbers, numbers. I am just doing some testing.
ETA1: Do you notice how my second ETA is before the fist one and the way it is a second ETA and yet has 1 in the name... straaange! Anyway. I can't figure out the number and the way it works, I mean I want to test it and blah blah, but then again... wouldn't I be manipulating the results? I will just let it be and enjoy it growing bigger...
ETA2: It is gone.
ETA: For once I read what I have written, damn, I am one boring creature. Now I know why I don't read my posts!!!

My cat is crazy.

Yeah, I know it is not the place to post this pic, but damn, he is adorable!

Well he is not my cat, he is my mum's cat, but I love him as my own. Do cats fetch? My cat fetches(sp?). He likes running after coloured plastic bags, but they have to be folded, is it folded?, and they have to be small enough to fit in his mouth(if the bag is too big he doesn't run after it).

If you look closely, you will see the blue plastic bag

Next time I go home I will film him. He is so funny, well I find him funny cause he is my little kitten. Oh and also he has a small head and a big ass (a head of a baby and a body of a grown-up). What was my point... ah! I want to get a cat! I can't. Not until I live with five more people, four of who are cat haters. Damn you, people!

On my way back home I saw a couple of storks. Oh, the happiness on my face, I could finally take off the martenitzas. I loved the way they looked on my wrist, but I kind of got bored with them. Oh, you should have seen the storks, proudly standing in their nest... a beautiful picture. And please smack me! Why, oh why I have a digital camera when I always forget to take it with me. I've missed to capture so much, smack me again, please!

Back on the cats topic. I've noticed that in big cities there are more homeless dogs than cats and in small towns it is the opposite. Why?

I think I am going to get a car till the end of the year. My dad is OK with that, I am OK with that, well I am almost OK with it. I have the driver's license, but oh the madness, I haven't driven a car for like 6 years now, or is it 7? Well, I can learn again, right. I am really sick of the public transportation and the similar. Last night the bus broke. I the middle of nowhere! Seriously. We were standing on the highway, freezing to death, cause of course the sun has just set and of course we couldn't sit in the bus, cause all the smoke that came from the engine gathered in the bus. The nature was beautiful, I can't show you because my camera was sitting at home gathering dust!!! It was cold, it was long... no one got hurt... and I want a car!!! I even know what car I want. And I will fucking get it!!!

The time change is killing me. It is only an hour, but damn, I so didn't want to get up in the morning. I noticed that my whole regime(?) is a little shaken...
I am complaining a lot, am I not? I guess I'd better actually do some work...

Wow, people, not one spelling mistake today! Ah, well, I only used simple words... Pfft!

ETA3: I forgot... I got a skirt. Yes you read that right. P. has a skirt. I look totally ridiculous in it, well to be honest i like my ass in it. I wonder should i post a pic and hear some opinions? Just to make this clear... I don't wear skirts!!! :P

#17 You are not alone

I don't know why it took me so long to put this one on the blog. (check out the white, green and red ribbon right under 'About me')
I believe they are innocent. It is not because they are bulgarians or anything. It is just the way it is.

ETA(cause I am stupid and forget): For more information on the matter click on the ribbon or here!

#16 Pre-period annoyance

I've been missing lately. My body was here, but my mind... it was stuck somewhere in between.
I think I am acting a little not like me and in general I am being a total dick. I don't know if it is the spring or something else, but I kind of feel the need to be on my own, doing nothing. I hate this feeling. I noticed that I am keeping away from my friends. Well I am there, but not quite. I smile, but not quite. I pay attention, but not quite. I participate, but not quite. This is awful. I feel like I am lying them all in the face. I am just floating about and trust me like 80% of the time I am just there, looking people in the eyes, smoking the next cigarette and the next one (I smoke too much lately, way too much... a pack is not always enough to last me 2 days, I know... I will cut them down) my body is there and where the hell is my mind. I hate it! I can't talk to people lately. I can do the general stuff "hi-hello-what's up?-blah blah" YUCK! So freaking fake. This is why I am not so much here and there, I don't want to be fake. Brrr. It is my period. I feel it coming pretty soon... say in 4 days. The pre-period days and the first period day... oh.my.god. Everything annoys me so much... and I feel I am starting to get little by little annoyed...
My mum, I repeat my mUm with an 'U', has birthday today. Happy birthday, mum! I haven't called her yet. Why I haven't called her? My battery is running low..., yeah but this is why I have my charger with me..., nope it is not this. She's at work, she probably can't talk... bullshit, it is her birthday, she is allowed a few more phone calls... I am at work... what? yeah, whatever, it is not this. My mum is depressed... I have to wish her something nice, I have to cheer her up, well I suck at making wishes and I so want to avoid the universal stuff (health, luck, love). Sure those are the most important wishes, but so trivial. And my mind is so trivial at the minute. What if I somehow fail to brighten her day up? I don't want that! I will think of something, I will call her later... well, actually I will not think of anything and I will just improvise, but I will do it the way I always do it... in the fucking last minute. Why do I always wait till the last minute... I aim the best and yet I only do one try to achieve it. Oh, I know... it is easier to excuse yourself then... "well I didn't have time to make it better, blah blah again" I am such a dick sometimes, cause I know what I do wrong, I know how to make it right, but yeah... why doing it? Cause I am dick! I admit, sometimes the last minute improvisations are quite charming and impressive, but only sometimes. Someday I will fuck myself so bad with this and I will regret is so much and I will hate myself then. I don't want to hate myself. Anyway...
I don't like my hands today. It is good that I still have my martenitzas and my super duper cool watch to make them look better :).
Las Vegas in less than 3 weeks... I don't know how I feel about this trip... I am happy yes, but at the same time I don't really care. Damn me! I should be jumping up and down with happiness. Well, I am not, smack me!
I am going home tomorrow... Oh, the quantity of food that will be there... Both grannies will be there... Oh, the annoyance! Wish me luck, you all.
O.K. I am done with the useless rambling. I did not read it, so I know it might be a mess and full of grammatical mistakes. Oh, well... you are the tricked ones, cause you read it.
Oh and since I love ETAs...
ETA: Just for the sake of it!!! Hihi

#15 HAPPY WOMAN'S DAY!!!

Happy woman's day to all the ladies!!!

ETA:

Whoever hears about this for the first time and is interested... more info here

#14 Viva Las Vegas!!!

Las Vegas, here I come!!!

#13 Grrrr

If you ever feel the need to totally ruin your blissful mood just go to the Bulgarian Post. The people who work there have the magic powers to just take away every desire you have for doing something special, also they are totally capable of wasting your time. Just imagine you are the only customer at that time and there is this tiny smile on your face that you will just post whatever you have to and go to work or whatever. You greet the personnel and suddenly all you get is grin faces and shouts and blah blah. Oh, i so hate grumpy and nasty people. I wouldn't mind if i was rude or something, but trust me at one point I wished I had a gun, so I could shoot everybody there! So it took me like 30 minutes and even more (I stopped looking at my watch at one point, cause i was already late for work) to post a package. Well of course they made me open everything and show what's inside, although this rule is only for heavy parcels and mine is tiny, also I think the lady there was just being mean to me, cause well it took me like an hour (I may be lying here, but it was a lot) to wrap the stuff. Also she refused to give me a box. WTF!!! I wanted a box and she gave me an envelope! Grrrrr! I took it, I was late for work and I had to post this today, I had no time for morning scandals! Well, things fit perfectly fine, but I wanted a box! So... she saw what's inside... fucker!... it was personal. Anyway, she put the stamp that it is safe and send me to another woman, who didn't even look me in the eyes. Oh, I hate people like that! Did I mention that? FUCKERS! (excuse me, but they managed to piss me off sooo much and I was so happy this morning) By the way, as being the only customer there doesn't mean you don't have to wait. But hell, it is all my fault that I went there while they were having their morning coffee and chit-chat during WORKING hours!

Anyway! I am not rereading this shit, cause I am sure it is indeed shit, but i needed to vent a little.

#12 CHESTITA BABA MARTA!!!

ETA (специално за скъпата Нина):

Baba Marta barzala, Martenichki warzala - Moravi, zeleni, Beli i cherveni Parvom na gorata- Da listiyat listata. I da doydat vsichkite - Shtarkelite, ptichkite, Parviyat pevetz, Koser hubavetz. Posle na gradinite - Da tzaftiyat girginite I latinki aleni, I bozhuri shareni. Yabalki da zreyat, Krushi da zhalteyat. A pak na dechitzata Varza na rachitzata Martenichki chudni Sas resni cherveni, Da sa ranobudni, Da rastat zasmeni!

Баба Марта бързала, Мартенички вързала - Морави, зелени, Бели и червени Първон на гората - Да листят листата. И да дойдат всичките - Щъркелите, птичките, Първият певец, Косер хубавец. После на градините - Да цъфтят гиргините И латинки алени, И божури шарени. Ябълки да зреят, Круши да жълтеят. А пък на дечицата Върза на ръчицата Мартенички чудни Със ресни червени, Да са ранобудни, Да растат засмени!

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Da vi e chestita baba Marta!!!
Vsichki da ste zhivi i zdravi!!!